Here I Sit

Here I sit, in front of the computer at 2 am. I did actually go to bed a good 2+ hours ago, but for like the 5th or 6th night in a row, I've been awoken by screams from what sounds like a madman. Corgan has been going to sleep as easily as he usually does (even with some crying sometimes), but lately he's been waking up every 2 hours or so throughout the night, usually beginning between 1 and 2 am. I try to let him cry through it, but it's hard for a number of reasons. 1. It's always hard to hear your baby cry. 2. He's STILL in our room (NOT BY CHOICE!) and sleeping (or screaming) probably about 6 feet from my head. 3. I'm a light sleeper (not that this matters with the type of screaming that he does). 4. Sometimes it's just easier to get up and bring him to bed to nurse back to sleep. 5. He's been teething and had a cold lately, so I never know if the waking up is related to pain or discomfort from one of these things or if he's just awake. When I do lay there and let him cry, I feel guilty the whole time trying to figure out if he's really suffering and needs me to rescue him or if he just wants up. 6. Even though Daddy can lay in bed about 4 feet from his screams and somehow manages to sleep through the whole thing, I can't so I have to leave the room half of the time which means that I either end up on the computer or trying to sleep on the couch until the cries stop (but I usually just end up worrying about #5 the whole time).

I know that by going and getting him, I'm just encouraging the cries and not helping the situation at all in the long run, but... ugh... sigh... frown... Will I ever get a good night's sleep again? Sometimes I really wonder if the answer is "No, not until he's in a different room." and it makes me want to cry and/or scream myself because I know that day (or night rather) is still far, far away. Unless I resort to sleeping in another room myself, which I may do this week to see if it helps.