So anyway, I'm sorry if anyone misunderstood what I was saying about being frustrated about the contest. If I had it to do over again, I would probably still enter the contest. It inspired me to get healthy again, and I think I've written about and talked about that way more than I've talked about being frustrated with the contest (you'll see evidence of that if you look at all of my entries that are tagged "biggest loser"). I even get emails from people who read my blog, but don't like to leave comments there saying that I have inspired them to get healthy again. That makes me feel GREAT and motivates me even more! And I haven't even mentioned how happy I am that there are pants that I would put on 5 weeks ago and they would give me a muffin top because they were so tight, but today they can almost slide off of my hips without even unbuttoning them. Or that I am so freakin' proud of myself for being able to do 45 "crunches" on the roman chair (2 sets, 25 then 20) when 5 weeks ago I couldn't even do 15. Or that I get a glimpse of myself in one of the walls of mirrors at the gym and think "I want to look like her" before realizing that I AM her! Yes, the competitor in me is frustrated that I probably won't win (or "lose" depending on how you look at it), but regardless, I am still a loser and hope to continue to be long after the contest is over because I have increased my metabolism, decreased my appetite, found a groove when it comes to exercising, and just become a healthier me!
So, apparently my frustrations blog entry about being in a Biggest Loser contest up against men hit a nerve. I never meant to imply that anyone in the contest wasn't busting her OR HIS butt, and I don't think that I did. I even went back and read my entry to make sure that I didn't say that because I honestly DO NOT believe that any of the contest leaders have had it easy. I DO still firmly believe that the women have a disadvantage, and I don't think that I was out of line by blogging about it. Because I'm a SAHM, I don't get out much to have adult conversations with my friends, so I often use my blog as a way to vent about the good and bad in my life. I seriously think I would go crazy if not for my blog and blog-o-sphere of friends. Just writing something down when I'm upset or frustrated helps, but having feedback of support from my friends makes things that much better. I also enjoy reading when others write about their frustrations and setbacks (and no, I'm not just talking about weight loss here), not just the good things in life, because it makes me feel like I'm not alone and I'm not the only one who doesn't have a perfect life.